Saturday, June 19, 2010

46 and counting

Today is my 46th birthday. 45 was one remarkable year. I accomplished things I'd never dreamed of. My sense of confidence has grown, I've established my voice and point of view. I've taken on responsibilty in ways I still amazed I can handle. I now comfortably call myself a writer.

I've also crashed lower than I ever have before, have doubted myself, have questioned just about everything in my life.

Yup, it's been quite a year.

46 is a blank slate. I have no projects in the works, no idea what's next, nothing in the future I'm thrilled about or dreading.

I'm here. I'm working on stillness, on gratitude, on being open. On not knowing, not planning, letting go of expectations, a sense of entitlement.

On seeing the good in situations. Being more understanding and supportive. Rediscovering patience.

Of accepting where I am instead of regretting where I'm not.

5 comments:

LPC said...

Happy Birthday!

Alexis said...

Happy Birthday! This is going to be a good year for you, I know it!

Anonymous said...

YOU GO GIRL!!! BREATHE AND THE DREAM WILL BEGIN AGAIN! xoxo Janie

lisa adams said...

p.s. are you letting yourself have some cake? or at least some frosting?! :)

lisa adams said...

Happy birthday, Elissa! Hope that this will be a great year for you, even if you can't see exactly what that entails yet. You will find it...