And so, days have been dragging slowly by. In waiting to feel better, I've been stuck in a shaky world that's about what's not working in the present.
But, this morning a friend presented me with an amazing challenge. To commit to writing positive for a certain period of time and in that writing from the half-full point of view I'd start swinging my mindset in that direction.
On the one hand, that should be easy. I have so much to be grateful for and I know that every day. Having said that, my hands are shaking as I type, and I'm having way too much trouble concentrating to put coherent thoughts together.
I guess that will make my challenge all the more challenging.
And so, taking all into consideration, I'm starting my happiness challenge. From now until my birthday (June 19th) I'm focusing on the positive.
It is a stunning morning. After days of steamy heat, the sky is crisp and blue, with a cool breeze blowing through the city. The sun is bright, the air clear, flowers vibrant against brick buildings and concrete sidewalks.
Days like this are hopeful. Enervating. Anything feels possible.
Ok. I hear Margaritaville. I've never heard that on a car radio in NYC. Talk about a powerful message.
It's so easy in this world to lose track of the good. To get lost in the stress, the pain, the anxiety, the worry. Yes, there's so much to feel awful about. But there's even more to appreciate.
I'm so grateful for my family. And my friends. For the amazing city I live in, for the neighborhood where I can't walk down the street without running into someone I know. For the many opportunities I have been given and have fought for. For having creative outlets. For the people interested in what I have to say and for sharing my journey with me. For being able to make a difference.
I'm grateful for having found the perfect lilac tank top. For having given up sugar successfully and for now fitting more comfortably into my clothes. I'm grateful for naps. For watermelon. For fresh peas from Chelsea Market. For having a car to sit in. For having this laptop to write on.
I'm grateful that I have a choice of delicious yoga classes to go to today. That I finished my first promo film for a client and I'm delighted with it. That I'm still learning new things. That I want to start sewing my own clothes (we'll see how that goes).
I'm grateful to my friend who didn't just listen, but suggested a different way of being when I wasn't able to do that myself. Sometimes we all need reminding and how lucky am I that when I needed it most, someone was there to do it.
Let me be that person for you. Take a moment to savor the good, the nurturing, the lovely. Appreciate it. Revel in it. Soak it in.
Hop on the happiness bandwagon folks. Come do this challenge with me.
An extra smile in someone's day can make a huge difference.