Saturday, June 12, 2010

the end of a long day

I'm craving solitude. A moment alone. Quiet. Emptiness.


But it won't happen today.

Fortunately, today is almost over.

Tomorrow I'm making sure I make space for myself.

I'm learning (actually I already knew but don't always act on it) that days that are all about everyone else leave me depleted. I'm happy to nurture, love, support, mediate, listen and all that I do but it's got to be balanced for me to stay in a good place.

Today I ended up resentful, angry, frustrated, put upon. I lost my temper. I was rude when I shouldn't have been. I blew up and wished desperately to be somewhere else.

I still want to be somewhere else.

I'm having trouble getting back to gratitude.

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