self care

I am pretty good at doing things for myself. Exercising, taking supplements, naps when I am so exhausted I need a break. But I don’t know that I excel at true self-care. My stress level is usually pretty high, I have all sorts of low level muscle aches, and pains that tell me, I am not respecting my body as well as I could and should be. I feel the tears pretty often these days and even though I meditate and practice, yoga and play with my dog and do creative things I still struggle. 

I mean, there was a lot of grief and loss and mourning over the past stretch. Learning to live with all of that, how it shapes and changes is still a work in progress. Giving up my quiet and independence to live with a growing up child who is now an adult is often a tight road walk and I’m never quite sure if I am balancing or about to fall into an abyss. Life sometimes. Challenging and rewarding. Joyful and overwhelming. Beautiful and heartbreaking. So I am taking this month to work on, settling and looking in word and finding peace no matter how chaotic everything may be.